Let’s see if I can condense the last 8 months or so right quick so I can get on to what’s really on my mind here.
The beginning of this year brought with it life in a new home and one hefty divorce.
Shortly after my divorce, I was attempting to update an online dating review I’d done years ago on Yahoo Personals. While updating the review, I was forced to create a profile just to get in to test the waters out to see if everything functioned like it did back then. It did not – so the profile was a good thing.
Because the profile was new, it was not visible and approved, so I shut down and went to bed thinking I’d finish up the next day.
The profile went visible sometime in the night and the next day I had over 30 responses.
I immediately hid my profile – because I was nowhere near ready to date – really.
There was one though. One that caught my eye because he was so close to where I live. He had to know people I knew and I thought it might be nice to find a male friend to hang out with while I’m processing my divorce.
We met, we liked, we dated.
Flash forward to present day…
I have trust issues! Big. Time.
I doubt it has a thing to do with the fact that I have been married twice to men who managed to cheat on me right under my freakin nose.
As the result of these trust issues, I feel as though I keep pushing A away or at least driving a wedge in between something that could turn out to be a really wonderful thing.
So what’s a girl to do when she can’t stop over thinking and over analyzing?
